I was so numb and depressed yesterday and smiled at the thought of suicide. Except I don't want a lame suicide if that makes sense..I wanna XXXXX for a complete mind-****. Anyways, I got in the shower having to fight my shirt off which sort of pissed me off, makes me remeber how I have to fight everything, everywhere, every single day. I used <Mod Edit - Acy - methods & details> and began [...] cutting. It was like someone was screeching their nails across a chalkboard, that's what it felt like on the inside. It didn't really help much, now I have 7 marks where it looks like it's a comet blasting through space. This was also my first time doing it. Though it didn't hurt much at all [...] so maybe that's how gone I really was. What's your thoughts?