I was a happy child and I couldn't wait to get older and now I want nothing except to be a child again and have a second chance. I am doomed to a horrible life and I want to die so badly. It wasn't supposed ot be this way. I don't know why this is happening to me. I am really not a bad person and I just don't understand it. Nothing good ever happens for me. I am so unhappy with my life but I cannot change. I eventually screw up everything. I can't see a future for me. I am extremely depressed and this is no way to live.