This is what I've heard for the last 8 years. It will get better. Well fuck you, it definitely has not. In fact it has just continued to get worse. I'm depressed, but not because of some chemical imbalance. I'm depressed because my life fucking sucks. Anyone who experienced what I've experienced and faces what I face would be the same way. I've kept going because a small part of me wants to believe that it will get better, even though the majority knows that it's complete bullshit. I'm now almost 28 years old and I feel like a 13 year old. I can't get a job (couldn't even get a part time job at future shop). Going to University was the biggest mistake of my life. I got absolutely nothing from it except a huge debt which without a job I'm barely managing to pay back the minimum. I've been out of school for 3 years now and I'm worse off than when I was finishing high school. I have never had someone elses interest unless they were drunk. I have the nervousness of a 15 year old around women because I've done nothing. I have enough money for 1 more month of trying. After that, I have nothing. I'm frustrated with the fact that it doesn't matter what I am and am not capable of doing because I'm completely dependent on other people. I need someone to give me the break of a job. All of which is just compounded by the fact that I hate the human species and society in general. I don't like how the game works and I don't really want to be a part of it. I think about myself plenty and am quite capable of being selfish but I feel like even when I do things for myself, I always think of how it will impact others. Something I don't see from others often. And that's where I get the angriest. I don't do things because they are wrong and what do I have for following the rules. No money, no friends, no gf, no hope. Meanwhile people I know who break the rules over and over, have it all. It hurts the most when my mother snaps on me because I'm still living at home and am relying on her so much. She thinks I'm not trying and I know I;m making her life worse. I saw all of this coming 7 years ago and tried to make sure I wasn't around but like everything I do, I failed.