I am only 44yrs old, but because of all the trauma from past oversoses, ECT and my coma, my memory is getting worse. I wont be surprised if i get worse and it's all my fault. I hope God will forgive me. I have a severe mental illness and it is becoming more obvious. I now have to suffer the consequence. A mind is a terrible thing to waste once you start experiencing the things I'm going through. Take care of yourself.
I've always took advantage of my mental capacity, when people say how intelligent i am. My mental illness never affected my intelligence and that's why i excelled through college. However, i dont see a bright future considering the rapid progression of my memory loss. I can't do anything about it but cry. I feel so depressed.
ECT can be a major cause of memory loss, perhaps something to discuss with the doctor that prescribed this treatment. I know someone who had many ECT's and his memory is wickedly bad and he blames the ECT. Don't give up..you said you excelled through college. Hell, I couldn't even manage highschool. Good luck to you whatever you choose to do.
I had ECT in2003 and i stopped them after 5 sessions cuz they weren't making me better. At least i was voluntarily, imagine if i was forced to. I really would be a vegetable.
Don't give up, I'll believe it will get better. Just keep hoping for a brighter day...I know it's hard to believe but that's the only thing that might help...believing
Fu<, I am flattered you want to be my friend as I saw your friendship request. However, I feel I'm the worst person to be your friend for I might be a trigger for you, since I'm so upset right now. I hope that me and you will get through this somehow. I've been dealing with suicidal issues since I was 20 and now I'm 44. It's about time to change but I'm stuck. I encourage you to keep venting here as I do. This is one of my life-savers, this forum. It's really my way to let it all out without no threats. I know lately, many of my forum friends are concerned about my safety, but I'm trying really hard to fight those urges. It's not easy. I am really alone in this because it's up to me, ultimately. Somehow I choose to stay around even though I'm in so much pain. My feelings are grave right now. Hope you will feel better than me.
