i cant get a job cuz im too afraid to talk to people. my mom doenst give a shit. i just want to find a sharp edge and pound my head against it until my brains leak out. then maybe she would finally understand how frustrated i am. i cant even talk to her now. i have the same feelings of fear i get when i talk to a stranger. im completely hopless. im not even safe in my own home. my moms boyfriend calls me a pansy now. she thinks im just using a cop out whenever i try to tell her what is wrong. i cant even express myself. i dont know how. all i can do for the rest of my days is sit here and rot away in silent agony.