I just got home from the counselor and it all went well. Why then do I feel so lousy. I am in even more pain than ever before in my life. I want to end it all right now. I don't even know who I am anymore. I am hurting so bad it is an unbelivable pain inside me. Help me. Tell me it is going to be ok. Everyday is a battle and I can't do this anymore. I am just one of the many that want to end life. Want the pain to go away forever. I am crying inside more than I want to admit. I WANT IT TO BE OVER FOR GOOD. My mind is so messed up. I can't remember a time I was happy anymore, a time before depression.