I'm thankful I found this forum because in all honesty I don't want to kill myself, but it seems like it would be the best option for everyone around me if I just wasn't here anymore. I lost my best friend today for the simple reason that I am too much to deal with. I push her away. I make her feel inadequate and that she has to prove herself to me. I feel like I am undeserving of any kind of friendship and feeling this way just reaffirms that people would be better off without me. All I do is hurt people. With me gone, everyone can finally stop worrying about me and live their lives without me hurting them. I'm tired of hurting people. I deserve to die.