Well, I'm Lauren. I'm 18 and been depressed for 3 years. I had been on medicine but as soon as my psychologist dropped me at 18 (he's a child psychologist) I started to go down hill again. I find that when I'm alone, I'm often wondering how I'd kill myself. It started when my aunt killed herself. I was so close to her and she was the only one in the family that actually seemed to understand me. That same year, one of the boys I went to school with and happened to know died in a car accident. At the same time, my boyfriend at the time left me to be with my best friend (luckily she wasn't mean enough to take him up). Ever since then, I've been cheated on by everyone I've been with. My life is going down hill and my birth parents BOTH contacted me right in the middle of all of this. My entire life my sister has been calling me fat and ugly and my dad seems to think I'm stupid. Lately, I've grown bored and myself and everything I had interest in just when I thought I was getting better. My best friend wants to have me committed but I won't go and I just think I finally need someone to talk to. Which is why I joined. I hope someone might be able to help me. Thank you.