So the hospital will not admit me unless I am suicidal. I am about to be homicidal soon! I am struggling so hard with anxiety, not being on the right antidepressants. Only suggestion I was given was to go to the emergency room. An ER doctor is NOT going to change my antidepressant, meanwhile I am about to go into a rage soon if I cannot get some help. They also suggested my family doctor, she is a joke. She prescribed a heart medicine for my blood pressure which caused me to have a false positive blood test for a heart attack, plus all the symptoms. I ended up in the hospital for a week and had to have a heart catherization which is dangerous if not necessary. I was freaking out. She has done many other wrong things, like just took me off my hormone pills which put me through hell. So she is out! I have an appointment with a new doctor for general purposes on April 18th. Psych doctor at the damn mental health center on March 7th, so meanwhile I can just suffer? This stinks to high heaven. The hospital does not have any beds available today, but still I do not meet criteria for admission to the hospital. The ER is like a drunk tank, with yelling and police fighting the patients. I cannot deal with that. I feel totally shit on by the whole system, left to my own devices. Not really a great idea for someone with severe depression and borderline personality disorder that can flip at any moment. I don't know what to do but just be angry and keep bitching. I need help. Any ideas?