...like funny ha ha i give up on it, wanna know why i dont wanna visit? cause im depressed out of my fucking skull and i dont want to talk about it, or try and talk about anything else, like the weather, or my repeatitous bullshit plans for some fictional future that will never exist, or any other lame ass shit you care to name. I just wanna wollow in my own shit forever and ever amen. sorry Shauna, your flogging a dead horse, and as much as I love you for it, im not worth your time babe. Its been all fucked up for so very long.