just need to rant somewhere, hope you peeps dont mind... eating disorders SUCK ! i feel like i have no self control. for few weeks i can be right on track , next few weeks ill be binging and purging, next weeks i'll be eating like a 'normal' person...which in turn makes me feel so useless and weak, so go on to starving, then giving in and eating, then feeling so guilty and annoyed that it turns into purging. it really never ends. someday i wish i wont have to worry about what i can and cant eat. someday i wish that the scale wont determine my self worth. yet someday i wish that i will be thin.