no one left anymore theyre all gone. no friends, no family, no partner just me, alone. hoping there are some folk on here who will understand and can help me cope with the emptiness, else the alternative is somewhat final. as an only child i never enjoyed my own company and i find all the loneliness intolerable. the thought of being alone and never findin the warmth and love with another is totally depressing. just wanna love and be loved, is that too much to ask? never experienced life alone before and it sucks. its been 4 months alone, pathetically short amount of time i know, and the silence is just deafening and cold. I dont want to leave this life prematurely but nor do i want to spend the rest of my time sad, alone and crying. Coming home every day to a cold empty house is just heartbreakin. been readin the posts on here, well the open access ones, for some months now and thought what the heck got nothing to lose. I know ultimately only I can help myself but havin some support, and givin some in return, from ppl in a similiar place has got to help cos them there doctors and therapists haven't a clue. how can someone counsel you when they've never experienced the sheer torment of life? just pat you on the head and send you on your way with pills or some jolly good advice and pull yourself together, and if you dont feel any better blah blah blah or the other one is if you can just hang-on (forgive the euphemism) a few more months we should be able to fit you in to see our therapist/counsellor, the waiting list is rather long dont you know. yep way to go society really taking care of the people in crisis! Oops sorry for the rant. hugs, love and warmth to everyone out there. Margaret Mead said: "One of the oldest human needs is having someone to wonder when you are coming home at night."