Hi, I'm a 26 years old student. I suffer from severe social phobia, (very) mild agoraphobia and selective mutism. I was beaten on a nearly daily basis as a child by both my father and older brother. My mother used to make fun of me and put me down whenever she could. I have tried many medications. None of them helped me out. I even did drugs in the past and failed one year in uni because of them. I don't talk to anybody, not even my family anymore. My last friends who somehow remained with me, dumped me too. One cannot be more alone than I am right now. I'm starting to feel really depressed. I'm even considering ending it all. I stole some <mod edit - methods>in the uni, so I have everything I need in case I can't take it anymore. If it wasn't for my faith in god, I probably would have done it. I never do anything, always alone ... Everyone in school think I'm weird, some probably I'm crazy. Even teachers do not like me and they make me understand it. I'm the one nobody wants anything to do with. So what am I supposed do now? I will not take it much longer I feel.