My whole world is crashing and burning around me. I cant be who I WANT to be... No one is being accepting, no one is helping me, im surviving barely on my own, I cant cope with this. Im losing all of those closest to my heart... And its killing me inside. Im pushing half of them away cos I dont wanna hurt them and the other half have walked out of their own choice, after deciding they cant stand to be around me any longer. I DONT WANT THIS LIFE ANY LONGER. Im finished. I have the means and the willpower to kick this hell forsaken life right now.