I know people on here have real problems compared to mine but i've still got mental inbalances so i've come to attention seek and let it all out. I am being totally worn down and going crazy. - Stress of all the uni work I have to do, many assignments due in in the over the next few weeks. -- Pressure of having to do well, this is my final year so the grades count ---That exists because i've not done great in the last 2 years - The future after university is worrying me. I dont know what will happen, where I will go, I do not know where I want to go or what I want to do, I came to university because I had no friends and it seems like it is getting close to the time where I will go back to not having any friends, i'm worried that where ever I end up it might drive me over the edge. -- I haven't applied for any grad jobs yet, I havent even done my cv and covering letter even though I should have started a few weeks back. - I've got a crush on a girl so I cant stop thinking about her, but not in the good way, more about when will I next see her, panicing that I wont see her again any time soon. This is all weighing me down, my days are painful. I dont want to kill myself but that doesnt mean part of me doesnt, part of me thinks about it all the time, probably more about my mind telling me that this is too much. I wont kill myself, I dont think so anyway, that isn't a risk in my eyes. Last night, lieing in bed while drunk I kept having uncontrollable anxiety attacks. Whenever I am alone I go insane.