I'm new to the board. Surely it's too early for me to have hit a snag? To be honest I feel like I'm on an out of control rollercoaster, although I think something went wrong. I've been desperately fighting the urge to self harm for a week or longer and each day that goes by the urge gets stronger. I'm reaching the point where I'm going to do it whether I want to or not. I even have dreams about it. I shouldn't be alive. I'm a disappointment to people and they're embarrassed to be seen with me. It's like I'm some sort of wild animal that escaped from the zoo. What do I do?