hi, ive never been on a forum like this before, and i dont know what to say..
but im reaching out, im lost and dont know where to turn,
i have no real close family or friends, or anybody to speak to.
ive been having suicidal thoughts most of the year, but i thought thats all it was,
ive had a very hard year and battled on through, but yesterday i walked to my local woods and sat upon the viaduc for allmost 3 hours, we have 2 foot of snow and the weather ben very bad, but that didnt detur me,
i sat and willied my self to just jump, just do it, get it over with,
no body will me miss me surely? im only in the background to all.
again today i walked to the very end of my local pier and watched the sea for an hour, wishing it was easy,,, just walked out and off the end, it will be over quickly surely?
i want to be at one, and to finally go home,
i dont cope with christmas period very well, and never have, and i fear this may be the last one i spend around,
2mora again im goin to head down the the seafront, and go from there,
its very real, and im scared.. i dont know what to do or where to turn,
but im reaching out, im lost and dont know where to turn,
i have no real close family or friends, or anybody to speak to.
ive been having suicidal thoughts most of the year, but i thought thats all it was,
ive had a very hard year and battled on through, but yesterday i walked to my local woods and sat upon the viaduc for allmost 3 hours, we have 2 foot of snow and the weather ben very bad, but that didnt detur me,
i sat and willied my self to just jump, just do it, get it over with,
no body will me miss me surely? im only in the background to all.
again today i walked to the very end of my local pier and watched the sea for an hour, wishing it was easy,,, just walked out and off the end, it will be over quickly surely?
i want to be at one, and to finally go home,
i dont cope with christmas period very well, and never have, and i fear this may be the last one i spend around,
2mora again im goin to head down the the seafront, and go from there,
its very real, and im scared.. i dont know what to do or where to turn,