I know I have to save myself from my own despair. I know that perfectly but it's like a part of me is too deep into the hole that I've dug for myself. At this point I feel I'm the only one who can save myself and set myself free. I know I am. I have to trust and believe in myself that I can do this but sometimes I really can't. I say to myself that I know I'd never have the guts to do it but life seems so utterly pointless and I'm going nowhere. They say you can only die once but I'm dying every day. Inch by inch my life is stolen away from me.