I just read some other posts. I am probably not supposed to say this, but I truly understand why some people want to end it and how hard it is to do it. As I write this, I want to end it. And I think I should. Will I, probably not, one because my wife is around two, I am a coward. Every time I try I quite 1/2 through. So Why am I writing this post. I am hoping it will make me feel better. But it's not.