I Have been struggling heavily for past two weeks with suicidal thoughts, I have been having a reoccurring dream and thought where <mod edit- methods>. What I find most terrifying is that when i think about it i am filled with calmness, I have no stress and no anxiety, which is discerning, i keep inching closer and closer <mod edit- methods> and doing it. It feels like it is the only way to die peacefully for me, to end this pain. I have trouble functioning right now too, im either insomnic or hypersomnic for days at a time constantly alternating between the two. I really just dont know what to do, i feel so alone and just want it to end.