Its all just getting too much. My head is feeling all over the place, i keep going dizzy and feeling sick. And im really tired too, when i shudnt be because i got a load of sleep last nite. I just wish i could disappear. people pretend to care but i cant believe them. Im wrong to feel wat i do, i know that, i always am. Wednesday is drawing closer and everytime i think about it my heart starts going at a hundred miles an hour and the nausea gets worse. I just want out, away from everything. I feel so alone right now, im not sure coming home was the best thing to do. im feeling better buts that only because im ignoring it. I jus really hope i dont break down in there. It mite help my case, but mite jus make me look stupid. God i jus wish it could be over. I wish i could be over.