I don't think I can go on for much longer. Everything I do, everytime I try, I end up in the exact same postion; alone, miserable, and wishing I was dead. I am so tired and so drained, physically, emotionaly, and spirtually, and nothing is going to get easier, just worse. My life is going to be hard, difficult, and not worth the pain so why don't I just give up. There is no point, no hope, and no reason for me to keep going on. Every day gets harder and everynight I keep thinking about the most effective way to kill myself. I am so far beyond hope and compassion that I just want to stop an I don't want to keep on going.