I came across a disturbing blog entry today... Written by an EMT who sees a lot of suicides and even more "attempts". Basically the guy was using dark humor, mocking people who attempt suicide and don't succeed. He says in the post that if you are going to "try" to kill yourself, don't try and fail because that makes you a pathetic, cowardly loser - go out with style, and make sure the method works. Obviously, some of the comments he received on the entry were outraged and emotional. He responded to each one unemotionally, saying that people who really want to die will do it, and those who "attempt" don't really want to die, they just want attention. And that suicide is cowardly, but if you're going to do it at least follow through and succeed. And don't botch it and simply maim yourself, becoming a burden to society as a "useless sack of flesh" (exact words; how nice). He said that it's important for people to realize that most other people don't care about you - whether you live or die. Even the social workers and police and all the healthcare workers who pretend to care because it's their job - they're just doing their job. He said that anyone who is depressed/suicidal is that way because they got themselves to that place - that their problems are all because of them, and no one else, not the world. No one is to blame but the person who is depressed at all. And finally, he made the point that if someone reading his blog couldn't handle what he was saying, they were too emotionally immature to be reading it, because they are letting his words influence their own emotions, just like people who are suicidal - always blaming everyone else for their feelings and problems. ...is this true? It made me feel sick reading it because it felt like a punch in the gut. I saw myself in those commenters responding emotionally, and I saw myself in the suicidal/depressed people he was so contemptuously referring to. Even though I had a strong initial emotional reaction to it, I'm not one to run from the truth. My mind won't let me - I have to be honest about things to myself, even if it hurts. So I want to know if this is the attitude I have to embrace, because it is the truth. And if it is true... How does a person who feels so broken and bitter with the world begin to change for the better, relying on themselves? I feel worthless and insecure and I am always socially anxious - that is my fault? If it is... so be it. But it's a hard pill to swallow. I guess it's easier to just blame the world. But even admitting it's all my own fault... I still don't know how to change. Or if I even have the will to. So what do you do then? No one else really cares about you, and you can't help yourself. Sounds pretty hopeless to me. And I guess that's all my own fault... Anyway... What do you think of the guy's blog post?