It's okay Kells breathe. one thing at a time. one breath, exhale, two breaths, exhale. its not hard. its not hard at all. whats with the overwhelming sense of dread in the pit of your stomach. what's with the migraine so severe you can barely see straight, in fact your vision is all screwy at the moment..everything seems so hazy. everything seems so wrong. I dont know why, i just feel sick. i feel like the walls are closing in and it scares me. kell get a fuckin' grip, please get a grip...get ahold of yourself...please...just fuckin shove it all down. push it all aside..ignore the urge. ignore it...fuckin ignore it. Stay away from the edge, dontlook down, stay away from the ledge..you don't want to jump. You don't want to fall kells you don't want to fall. you want to be strong and vague and unaware and alone and empty..dont fall dont fall kells its a crazy long drop down to the bottom. it's a crazy long time since u've felt this off. off ...yea...off..crazy isn't you. You are just crazy. too stupid to go see someone, to stupid to go get help, to stupid to not get on drugs, to stupid to not call that number given to you. kells ur going nuts kells ur cracking up...what the fuck did you do so wrong. where did you slip. where did you fall. did you break along the way. did you break along the way kells..did you let them break you? did you let them take ur soul, did oyu let them take ur heart your one good thing left. did you let themt ake your heart bc if you did your worthelss now. worthless piece of shit. worthless shell of a girl. crack the inside, break the out. break the out shatter the inside. an endless cycle...and endless cycle..and end it!! we aren't on the same path are we..we didnt follow the same oath..we didnt plan the same plans..we are not one..we are not in sync...we are not alike. we are differetn. im not you..never will be...enver have been. we are not the same..you suck...you suck the life out of eveyrone around you. you are a vaccuum..you are a vicious maniacal human..lookin for revnege on ur life..we are nothte same. we never will be. id ont wnat to be you.. i want to be me..so give me my soul back..give me my life back...take away your hate take away the words take away the lashes that you left across my soul..take it away you..take it aawya. TAKE IT THE FUCK AWAY YOU VENGEFUL BITCH!!!