What a life ah! I'm new here so hello to all. I am 36 years old and suffered from serious self mutilation for 26 of those years. I found a way out and that was working my ass off 18 hours a day to keep my over imaginative mind occupied. I dealt with it for alot of years without any self mutilation, I damaged my body so much that I am pretty much suffering constantly on an hour to hour basis, I cut my fingers off, I cut my face up, I cut my ear off and then once I got close enough to being a complete nutter I stopped. Something found me, god knows what but it did. Now I have lost my job, I am in an serious amount of debt to creditors (cards), I can not go straight back into work of any kind, I've applied for 100jobs in 5 days and nothing in response, at all. I feel forgotten. I have just returned from a spell in Jamaica where I was imprisoned for not paying the police, after a whore stuck a glass in my head after I smacked her for trying to grab my wallet and wielding a machete in defence across my beautiful girls head. I spent 3 weeks being fed once every 3 days. I approached the brish consulate and had a silent response. My financial, love and self worth is almost discontinued and I am not feeling very well at all. I've been searching on the net of best ways to just bypass this life and all keep coming up with the same thing. It is not going to work unless I chuck myself off a bick building, then I may splat someone else. How on earth can this be done without damaging anyone else. What countries can I visit to do this legally with a certain payment, I've had my dogs put down before and looked painless enough, can't be so bad. Any advice?