All I ever do is fight with my wife anymore. I feel more alone and hopeless than I ever have, and it doesn't seem to be going away this time. I feel like I am on the verge of killing myself. It's not a sad/hurt feeling I have inside, but instead I just feel nothing. I feel completely empty, and I feel that it would just be easier to kill myself. Suicide sounds amazing when compared to the idea of forcing myself to survive another day.