Hi, I'm new here... I am really down now.. My 4 years relationship is falling apart and I am to blame, constantly, harshly, reminded of that by my gf... I thought I was on my way back up after being badly bullied in school, being outcast at uni and finally finding the one I love... Now she makes me take all blame, turns everything against me.. I can't cope, I can't take it anymore all this blame, punishment and shame... I did cut myself deep but not deep enough. I don't know which way to go. To live or to die? Please, can someone please talk to me?