There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about ending it all. Now so more then ever. Backstory: I’m a paraplegic. I basically can’t feel, control anything from the chest down. I use to think everything would be OK. At the time of my accident, I was married and happy. About a year after my accident, my wife left me and we finalized the divorce a few months ago. I’ve recently learned that she started seeing somebody else. I think thats what triggered what I’m feeling now. It was the last straw. But that’s only the half of it. I can’t help but think how different my life would be if i never got into my accident. I hate seeing people walking around and how easily they can do things like go up stairs. I get so frustrated cause it’ll take my 5x as long to do things like getting dressed or use the bathroom. I get so frustrated cause I’ll know I’ll never be able to do simple things like walk on a beach holding hands with somebody I love or enjoy the “feeling” of being with a woman. Everyday it gets worse. I’ve gone as far as cutting myself and putting out cigarettes on my legs cause I know I won’t feel anything. I think I’m just waiting until the anniversary of my accident to end it all. I’ve already made travel plans to see some of my friends one last time. I don’t know what to do anymore and I see no end to me feeling the way I do. I’m on anti-depressants and I’m in counseling, but it doesn’t seem to be helping. I just don’t know what to do and I can only thing of one way out.