So, for background I am in the UK and have been bounced from GP to CBT to outpatient care. I followed these treatments as far as I could as friends were pressing me to do so. However, a few days ago I decided to XXXXX (methods). Since then I've experienced bloating, bloody stools and general malaise , but it's been 3 days and I'm still here. I'm upset. I'd like to be dead. I'm going to come clean to my outpatient carers tomorrow, but I wondered if anyone has any idea what the next steps will be, or if I'm jumping the gun? It seemed like a lot to me, so I'm confused that it's not had a huge effect on me. Advice?