It's been few weeks since my last episode, where i went haywire. While I'm not actively self harming, the thoughts are there. The little voices that want me to, the part of me that enjoys it. Its a very difficult feeling to explain, when you realize that you actually like the way it feels. The thoughts in your head about the things your could do that would feel amazing. I know I'm messed up. I have a weird addiction to pain. I've tried to supplement self harm for other things, such as piercings, but you can only do so much of that before it can hinder your future. Then you're mind starts to come up with thoughts and fantasies about things you can do to feed a messed up addiction. Its like drugs. Only free. (no I am not condoning self harm, just explaining how my mind is working) How do I stop this? How do I get over it?