But I need an out. There just isnt anything that I can do too totally obliterate the thought of never being happy again. No amount of busyness will hide it. No amount of counselling is going to help. Nothing else that I can obsess over to take my mind away. In a bad place right now and the timing couldn't be worse. Nobody to even talk too about this, but then, thats my fault. I don't know what to do.