My GP was awful when I first went to see her about my problems. It took about 4 months for me to finally be referred to see a psychiatrist. I was disgnosed with BPD but was discharged soon after, refused treatment as my issues were not 'serious enough'. I spend three years studying extremely hard, for nothing. I can't get a job, no one wants me, I'm turning all those that care about me away from me because I keep thinking they don't care. I can't sleep at night, I'm being rude to just about everyone without wanting to and I just want someone to be there for my 24/7. Things aren't that simple though and I have always had an extreme fear of abandonment. Every day I keep thinking that my boyfriend will leave me in some way and I will be all alone. It's affecting my ability to even carry out day-to-day activities. He's ten years older than me and because of that I keep thinking that he will leave me here alone one day. I don't know what to do to stop feeling like this. Does anyone who understands what I've just wrote have any ideas?