I feel so damn stuck. I'm very triggered the last few days by certain things. that frustrates me. it's like I'm back to getting nowhere. I've done some negative coping. I'm scared I'm heading back to a dark place. christmas and new years are hard anyhow. I know it's the same for many. I know I need to try and stay out of being pulled down further but it's easier said than done. I don't really care either.