Mo, some members may not have been around long enough to remember when you were a bit more active on here, and therefore may not be as well acquainted, or familiar with you. (As I...) : ) I just think that you're such a wonderful person and a great and truly inspiring human being. I know that you probably can't see that (or what I am talking about) right now. But it is easy to express, articulate, or "say!" As all I have to do is (to) speak the truth. You are not as unworthy as your head &/or mind are telling you currently, or presently. I understand what you're writing; maybe not the reasons behind the meanings, shall we say. But I do empathize with you and share your sentiments, echo those very same feelings of- or from "pain." That said, in my opinion... (or it is my 'belief!') that. . . You are special, and have a unique talent that not only this forum or place is better for, or from (having had & still continuing to do so) but also the outer world, out there--shall we say? In real life, seems to be en vogue, these days to say!
I believe that your qualities as a human being, and a good person of worth much higher than any value you can currently see or place, are admirable and noteworthy. And it is a shock to me, someone who so appreciates you & in fact, looks up (way up!) to you as someone I could only hope, or dream to be like! That is all I can, or have to go off. What I have seen and heard from you in terms of action 'round these parts over the years. And yes, my memory (& perhaps, mind as well) may be fading in some things; you & your incredible nature, are not one - or some - of them.