I've been constantly thinking about dying for about six weeks now. I thought I'd feel a bit better after the stress of final exams had passed, but I don't. I'm not even excited about going home for the holidays. I'm always anxious and I always feel like I have to be doing something. When I have nothing to do I end up pacing or going for long walks to random places. I also wake up frequently during the night and have trouble falling back to sleep. I wind up simply getting out of bed much earlier than I should. I'm simply spent.