Okay, so, I am 15 years old, and I have bipolar disorder. Starting from when I was about 12, I started getting really depressed (as well as manic because of the bipolar disorder) and resorted to cutting myself. I was hospitalized once because I said I wanted to kill myself. For the most part, I've been doing really well lately. I've been keeping my emotions in check and my medications are well balanced, but tonight, for no reason in particular, I'm feeling worse than I have in a long time. It's bad enough that it's making me want to cut myself. I haven't really cut myself in about half a year. I've of course had urges, but I'm normally pretty good about dealing with them. This time I'm not sure if I can hold back. Help? I really hate feeling like this. And I'm afraid that the feeling won't go away.