Hi... As you can probably see by my post count, I'm hardly a newbie, but its been so long since I last posted, I'm not sure anyone here will even remember me, so I figured this will be the best place to start... I first came here at the edge of the abyss, thinking there was no way out. Turns out there was, and I was lucky enough to find it, in this very forums, a beautiful ray of hope thay made be believe in life, that gave me the strengh to drive my life upwards, get new dreams, new ambitions, new hopes... Ahh but happiness has that effect on your mind where you truly believe all will be alright from now on... It makes it so much harder for you when you realise you were wrong... Again... And so, around 2 years since I joined, defeated by life, and over a year since I left, ready to start a new chapter of my life where there would be no defeats... I'm back, again defeated by life... With nothing to show for my best efforts... Hello once again SF.