for me this year it is mixed emotions. i love going out and finding the perfect gift for my family members. i love to give but this year the time of year has come up and i just look forward to it coming to an end. im still looking for the perfect gifts to give cos thats me but the end of the year will hopefully bring a freash start into the new year. a chance to try and put things behind me. does anyone believe in the christmas mericle cos i dont but i know what i dream of everyday. i also believe in god so i do see the year as a celebration i just dont know what im celebrating.