its coming back - help

[Lestat]

Ive been depressed for around 8months now. Some of you may remember me from the past when all this started.. most not.

I have been in a state on denial the past 5 months and it has been all that has kept me going till now... But I cant deny what is happening to me anymore...

I feel that my life is now over. Everyone I love is gone, moved on with their life and the initial "Let me help you" has now worn off.

I am on medication and it does help... But now i feel I am dependant on me (Some type of Prozac).

I cant sleep anymore... I am always trying to keep myself busy so I dont think about this... but now its been to long. I do not know if I can carry on with everything for much longer... I know that I am not at the end of this problem and it will get worse....

I guess what I am asking here is for some help. I dont even know what type of help I need... But i do not want to use suicide again as it just made things worse... not just for me but people I care about.

 

[Gunner12]

Maybe you have to remind people that you are still here and you are still hurt.

You have the strenght to continue.

 

[gentlelady]

I do remember you Conrad. I am glad to see you are still around. I wish you wouldn't have felt the need to come back but consider yourself welcomed with open arms. We are still here to offer you support. thank you for taking the initiative to come back and admit you need help. You mentioned being on meds. Have you spoken to your health care provider about your inability to sleep? This can cause depression to deepen. There are also some relaxation techniques that might be helpful for you to try before lying down to sleep. Feel free to PM me if you would like. My box is open and I will get back to you as soon as i can. :hug: