Last Summer I overdosed on a prescription drug because I suffered from depression, was going through school changes, cheating on my boyfriend with a married man 30 years older than me who i had feelings for, and felt my out of the country boyfriend was planning on leaving me. He did, even after I told him I attempted suicide. It's been 8 months and I've felt better than I have in a looooong time, I'm talking years. I've learned right from wrong and self worth, however, even though my perception has changed drastically, I feel depressed when I think about surviving. I wonder what would happen if my life had ended that night. Usually I just reflect and take pride in the things I've overcome, but today I just felt sad about it. I thought I was over it but I guess I'm not. Does anyone else share this feeling?