i died yesterday. i no longer feel (physically/mentally) anything. i don't even think anymore. i don't care about anything anymore. there is nothing. i'm glad that i know now that it's 100% over. i'm done with my life. if i die, so what. if i don't do anything to die, then i'll just sit/lay down and zone out. that's all i'm capable of now. it's too late to fix anything. it's too late for everything to suddenly go my way. i can't deal with something going my way ever again. the damage is done, my mind is gone. it's over. thank you god for letting me know for sure that it's all over.