it's FINALLY over

[rggkjg1]

i died yesterday. i no longer feel (physically/mentally) anything. i don't even think anymore. i don't care about anything anymore. there is nothing. i'm glad that i know now that it's 100% over. i'm done with my life.

if i die, so what. if i don't do anything to die, then i'll just sit/lay down and zone out. that's all i'm capable of now. it's too late to fix anything. it's too late for everything to suddenly go my way. i can't deal with something going my way ever again. the damage is done, my mind is gone. it's over.

thank you god for letting me know for sure that it's all over.

 

[Vitreledonellidae]

You always feelm you always think,
otherwise you couldnt post this.
I know how great the feeling feels you have now,
but things can get fixed,
things can get your way,
the damage can be dealt with.
You can actually feel alife, feel happy
do things you never thought you could do
be someone you never thought you could be
Its never to late and everything is possible

 

[mdmefontaine]

i'm so sorry you are feeling SO low..... :sad: how can i help? pm me, if you want. or someone else you really connect with here. . .. i can hang, until someone else comes 'on' that you want to talk to . . .

i care about and am worried about you. there is always a chance that on a new day - we can have a better day. an opportunity . life can change in an instant. but in reality hun, we do not know what comes after..... you have worth and value and purpose here, now.
please hang on, talk to us - we all care about you xx :console:

 

[Stranger1]

Hey RGG,
I know how you feel. I spent fourteen years just lying in my bed wishing to die. I had been in and out of the hospital several times and all they did was either adjust my meds or change them. It didn't matter to me because all I wanted to do was die.
Then I got in therapy and it took her two years to get me to start opening up. Then one day I found this forum and found support here from people with alot of the same problems as me. I had finally made some friends. I still isolate myself to my bedroom 24/7 but I spend alot of my time on here talking to people. Between here and my therapist I live a solitary life and she says there is nothing wrong with that. If that is what makes me happy then it is o.k. to isolate.
Don't do as I did, I lost fourteen years and can never take them back. Get some professional help and stick with it. Eventually you will start to feel things again...Take Care...

 

[justafool]

No, it's never over. Problems don't go away until they have been fixed. But I won't be so idiotic as to offer any suggestions to you.

But I will say this: sometimes a part of us needs to die, and we should just let it die. But the whole of us is painfully eternal.