everything I believed is now showing me it really wasn't. Can't help but wonder if it ever really was in the first place; it sure had me convinced it was. I'm so dang gullible!! What a sucker I am!!!! I'm extremely desperate to slip away into the world of nothingness and leave it at that. I simply don't have the strength to continue to deal with the lies life has a way of throwing at me. I can't deal with all the changes being thrown at me, either!!!