Well for almost the past month, I have been helping a friend shack up at my place due to the fact she has nowhere to stay, and I love the company. Its not so quiet and depressing. What gets to me though is having to watch her and her BF get all lovey dovey.Man it makes me feel both depressed and lonely. And here some time next month I am planning to get a place with them. I am going to hate th part of having to listen to their disagreements and nagging ugh it maes my head hurt. But I really really want to get out of this apartment..I would really like to have a place that does not have a concrete floor, and has a bigger kitchen. But living with Mary has helped me feel a lot more open, like I have somewhat of a social life. Its just its also made me realize how lonely I really do feel being single, its just so damn hard to meet women i am interested in in my area. Most around here are religious and I have never in my life had any interest in that. I am not comfortable with being told how I should live my life. And being as old as I am makes it even harder. Most I do meet have kids, and I don't much like trying to be pushed into being the father to some other guys kids. I like freedom Thats one of the reasons I have stayed single... no bitching or complaining..ordered to do this or that. So yeah I am of 2 opinions when it comes to relationships. Like anything it has both good and bad. My big problem is, everyone I meet is online and states away. There is one in particular I do wish I could see, but even if I was able to, her parenst got issues with me, and I HATE dealing with parents. But anyways this has been whats going on with me, all my thoughts and concerns.