the thoughts are getting stronger in my head, how am i ever going to get rid of them? I don't see why i'm still here, why i'm still hoping that something will come along to keep me happy. The thoughts of happiness are gone, everyday i sit and wonder when will be the best day to do it? It's getting worse and worse as the days go on. Today after i went to a funeral and saw all my old classmates, and they didn't seem interested in talking to me, i just couldn't think of anything else, but dieing. During the funeral, i was thinking to myself, how i would have mine planned. It scares me in a way, cause when i was younger, i never thought that this would be a part of my life. I never thought that this was what i would be thinking when i was older. :sad: It's just frustrating, it's getting harder and harder to live. i'm sorry
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You have nothing to be sorry for hun. The funeral was a hard thing for you to go to and you made it through. It does bring up those kinds of thoughts sometimes. I had many funerals in this past year as you know, and I thought of those same things several times. Then I remembered that I would really have no say anyway. It is those left behind that make all the decisions. Could I do that to them, knowing what it has done to me? When I am feeling particularly bad, probably. You have come a long way hun. Do you realize it has been almost a year since we first began talking? Many rough spots along the way, but you are still here. Still fighting. That should show you something. You are a wonderful, bright, young woman. I have great respect for what you have accomplished. Take pride in these things. You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for being. (I know. I hate that phrase, too. But it is the truth, so I felt the need to say it. 
). I think of you often hun. Please take care. Have faith in yourself. :hug:
). I think of you often hun. Please take care. Have faith in yourself. :hug:- Status