the thoughts are getting stronger in my head, how am i ever going to get rid of them? I don't see why i'm still here, why i'm still hoping that something will come along to keep me happy. The thoughts of happiness are gone, everyday i sit and wonder when will be the best day to do it? It's getting worse and worse as the days go on. Today after i went to a funeral and saw all my old classmates, and they didn't seem interested in talking to me, i just couldn't think of anything else, but dieing. During the funeral, i was thinking to myself, how i would have mine planned. It scares me in a way, cause when i was younger, i never thought that this would be a part of my life. I never thought that this was what i would be thinking when i was older. :sad: It's just frustrating, it's getting harder and harder to live. i'm sorry