I've been depressed and had alcohol abuse problems for a while now. I've managed to keep the drinking under control and hidden. But I fucked up last week. I don't remember the weekend, but looking at my bank statement, I spent 50 quid on Beer and drank it all by myself alone. Now that's fine, but the problem is I joined a new church to try and get help and get clean, and I'm almost 100% sure that I went to the services on Sunday. This is obviously a problem as God know's what I said, or did. I'm trying to be a better person, but it's hard. I can't face anyone at church again, and I'm embarrassed to even go back to the shops, just incase I said or did something when I was drunk there. Now I'm all alone again, with no one, no hope and I'm terrified to leave my house =[ Sorry for the rant, I'm just feeling so hopeless.