I'm 20 years old and have been periodically suicidal for a few years now, but not as I'm writing this, I just don't have anyone to talk to about these things right now. I don't think I have clinical depression, but I'm extremely sensitive and get hurt easily and there are occasionally bad moments where dying feels like a rational solution to pain. I guess I could sum up my problem as being a mix of loneliness and self loathing but I'm working on my self esteem and trying to reach out to people more. I know there are still a lot of really bad nights ahead of me, the kind where the pain feels like too much and it feels like no one cares, but I'm very greatful to have this community here when I need it. Thank you.