*possibly triggering.. I'm sorry.* Hi, everyone. I've been missing for a while. Things have gotten really bad. This guy and I were sort of together, but then he changed his mind. He's still really sweet, but he just wants to be friends. My grades are slipping in one particular subject, and it's devastating. I can hardly keep it together. Nothing feels good anymore. I've started cutting again, and this time, I'm doing it vertically. I really want it all to end. I've even been looking up ways to commit suicide, and I might even have a plan. I don't know why I'm telling you this. It feels good to get it out though, and thank you for reading.