So I've been feeling a lot more suicidal lately and it's getting a little too much. I have no energy when I wake up yet I sleep all day to try get that energy. My friends never talk to me anymore and it's kinda sad. I'm always the one to start organizing shit but when the tables are turned, there's no effort on their sides. Even now as I type this (22:53), it's been a couple of days since I received any messages at all from any of my friends. I feel so very lonely and I'm not sure what to do about it. Why does everything have to be so hard? It really feels like no one wants to talk to me but maybe they would want to when it's too late and I'm dead. I feel like all my energy is never returned. I always seek out info about my friends because I care about them. It feel likes nobody knows me because they never ask me. I just want to lay my head down and be done with everything.