About 7 years ago i used to cut myself feally bad then 2 years ago i took an overdose but was found by my husband and taken to hospital but the though had never left me. I probably don't make much sence,but i can feel it happening again and i know i need help but i can't speak to peple, the words don't come out. The last few weeks i've been checking the medicine cupboard again. I don't want to leave my 3 girls or my husband but my mind sort of takes over my heart and thats how it starts. I just want peace and quiet. I love my husband and my girls but i'm not me anymore if that makes sense. I'm not the woman he married or the mother that gave birth to my babies. I hide things with a smile but i'm finished with smiling.