But I've actually been considering suicide. Even though I have a perfect family I really shouldn't have anything to complaign about. I'm 17 years old and I've always been a good student in school but this past year I barely managed to pass some of my classes. I have no weight problems, I go to the gym regularly and weigh about 165 lbs. with 3.2% body fat. I grew up in a family where sports mean alot, and I don't like playing sports so I went into drama, I've been the main actor in so many plays and people say I do great and I just feel like I do horrible every time. After the main theatre performance I asked out the beautiful girl that was the lead female role in the play (I was the lead male role) and she said yes! I feel like I do everything wrong with her though. Her friends say she's just shy but I feel like I've been a terrible boyfriend for bringing her roses before I knew she didn't like roses and not being able to talk to her much during exam time. We've been going out for about 3 weeks now and have been on 1 date. She's also a heavy drinker and partier and I've been sober all of my life and I have never smoked or had sex. Maybe I'm too hard on myself or maybe I'm just a failure, either way I feel so depressed and I feel that even something someone on the internet says can change my decision on how I feel about things. I'm sorry if this was a waste of your time.